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THE SACRIFICE OF SANITY
Life of Essence
Now one goes through the door of the Corridor of Madness. What is madness? It is the undeveloped essence forcefully exploded into the active role of controlling the organism, which up to then had been under the command of the psyche.
It appears as if a three-year-old has suddenly been put in charge. Sometimes it seems as if one has forgotten everything, even how to think and act.
Essence is very simple. It consists of only a very few habits and no more. The essence, unlike the psyche, does not find life difficult or complex. There are few needs, if any. Desires, aims, achieving, social life, artistic striving, politics, explanations, conversation -- all the ordinary aspects of the psyche -- have fallen away.
One's action and speech is taken from the environment and not from within. Feeling and sensing are taken from within, not from the environment. In short, one learns to think with one's feelings.
One always speaks about oneself in third person as an object. The self is the psyche and the "I" is the essence. One practices by giving the teachings to one's food before ingestion, by treating food as a living being with full consciousness and awareness, who needs and deserves to receive the Method before final assimilation.
One approaches each task from the point of view of the needs and consciousness of the outer world environment. One gives running commentary and instruction to the body as if to a computer and machine not directly connected to one's control center, but able to hear and to obey verbal or thought commands.
One behaves as if one is the commander of a ship, and addresses the body and mind as if they were the crew. One assumes an unattached viewpoint in which one is able to issue directions and instructions for the actions of the body and mind.
One may say; "Now it is going over to the stove. Now it is turning on the gas... Now it is reaching for a pan...." But one never says; "Now I am going over to the stove."
There are barriers to the Corridor of Madness, just as the Corridor of Madness is a barrier to the work itself. One may encounter money, attitudes, fears, endurance, impossible teachers, personal interests, the ridicule of others, or fears, as barriers which remain insurmountable if one is the least unsure of one's aim in taking the dangerous journey through the Corridor.
Should one resist madness when in the Corridor, one is sure to be overcome by the visions of darkness. There are no side doors or exits except the one exit at the end of the tunnel.
As one first enters the corridor, one may see some of the things ahead, and may not want to continue. In this case one must immediately and without hesitation leave the work. This is the last time it is safe to leave the work, and if one continues but does not endure to the end, one will never attain sleep comfortably or soundly.
The madness will not abate even for an instant until the end of the corridor has been reached. This warning is always given before one enters. One can never say that one was not told of the dangers before the journey.
to be continued...
In 2002, E.J. and Dr. Claudio Naranjo got together in Nevada City, California and had a free-wheeling discussion of education, its institutions and possibilities for transforming individuals and society. There were over 150 people in attendance. The insightful talk (cdt264) is available on cd or as an mp3 download.
"What happens is when you get enlightened, because you're enlightened, you're now what's called vulnerable. So you now have a much larger capacity for karma. So now, here's a big secret of that. At that point of vulnerability, you can't reduce your karma, you have to spend your karma.
"The way you can spend your karma is with the Bodhisattva Vow. You now have to actually apply what you know and impart your state to another. So you're kind of passing this off to somebody. So, what you do is they propagate and disseminate, and thereby, spread the good word, and so forth. So spend my karma points on the welfare of all beings everywhere, but not all beings everywhere because that never works. It's just you never know, you can't tell, 'Are you getting out there at all?'
"So, what you do is you choose something that you can tie to a measurable phenomenon that will actually enable you to tell that the invisible stuff is happening because it's being driven by that; it's not driven this way, it's driven that way. So a karmically-driven phenomenon would indicate that your karma is being converted into something for the benefit of all beings everywhere. Now let's find what that thing is that it's being converted to, because you're going to convert your karma.
"You will do that at some point, do a conversion play. It's kind of like converting the bread and the wine to the body and blood. It's sort of like a transformative process.
"You're converting karma into something. You don't yet know what it is you're converting karma into. You don't have to worry about converting karma because you're going to carry the karma to the conversion device, put it in one end and it's going to come out the other end. Then you're going to spend that thing, that stuff, on behalf of all beings everywhere.
"You're going to have to get rid of it, put it out there, or in other words, propagate it and disseminate it. But you get it out there in propagation format, which means -- share with those who share with those who share with those. So it goes out actually in a progressive style rather than a linear style. One person tells 2 people, each of those tells 2 and each of those tells 2 and each of those tells 2. If you keep doing that, not very long, millions of people will be telling millions of people. That's what happens."
I have been re-reading Visions in the Stone and HBM. There are some quotes that struck me again in the re-reading and I want to share them with you.
From Visions In The Stone:
". . . I'd asked him outside if he'd ever thought about the idea that we were already in the Bardo, and that we weren't really awaiting death, but rebirth into the Real World . . . that basically this world was all a Bardo dream."
"˜What makes you think that?' he'd asked.
"˜It's all so plastic,' I responded. "˜Things are too pat; everything fits too well to be the Real World. This universe is just too damn accommodating to be real.'
"˜Too accommodating,' he nodded. "˜That's what I think, too. And most of the monks I know agree with that view. We probably are in the Bardo right now. The instruction books are intended for the dead, you know. And that's us, isn't it?'
"˜I really don't know,' I replied. "˜That's what I was hoping to find out from you. But if this is the Bardo, what's the Real world like? If the only world we know is just a Bardo dream, then what can we expect from the Real World?'
"˜It won't be like this,' he thought he answered."
From The Human Biological Machine as a Transformational Apparatus:
"If we refuse work, we refuse help. Work is help."
It dawned upon me recently, just after completing my daily American Book of the Dead (ABD) reading, that embracing, not just tolerating, the negative manifestations of others is essential. Success in navigating the Bardo is really built on -- "Neither attracted nor repelled" -- one of the "four lines".
"Guide No. 10," E.J. Gold, pen and ink wash available as a print on Arches Rives BFK 100% rag paper in a signed and numbered edition.
So there may come the day that you too will no longer be able to avoid the hard truth of that which most repulses you is at the center of your work on self.
The ABD tells us that only after you can totally accept that which repels you, can one diffuse this horrific vision allowing it to dissolve and recede into the undifferentiated living void from which it came. When encountering the cleansing radiations, we are repeatedly reminded that one's aim is to merge, become "all one".
To die before you die is realizing that you are not what you possess or achieved and that your Being is much more than your having or your doing.
To die before you die is letting go of those illusions before you physically die and realize that there is no death, as you are more than your physical body and you are more than those limited perceptions and beliefs you identify yourself with, in your human biological machine. You let go of all of your attachments to your body and to the identity you have created for yourself in this life.
When our program completely runs our life unconsciously, we are not conscious that we can be different or that we can be more than that image we are identified with. We become completely entrapped in that reality like there is nothing else.
When we can stop and release the need to hold on to our pain and identification with the human biological machine, allowing ourself to be free from it, free from worldly concerns, we than become free to become who we really are.
Death is when we see ourselves as we truly are. We understand that we are much more than our body, our emotions, our thoughts, our mind.
An exercise helpful in letting go of attachments is, for example, practicing the "Not That" meditation with a focus on different aspects of our life, our possessions, our personality, our environment.
Each moment could be the last. So it's important to be present in all of life and to live as if we could die in this moment, with our heart, actions, and relationships at peace and pure. We are honoring life and we are living with gratitude and humility.
When we die to our self, we come alive in the Absolute.
"Higher entities will not tolerate a negative state. Using postures along with negative emotions, you can burn negative emotions away within yourself permanently. If we can change our whole posturing, the old life will die away. The real meaning of "die before you die" is to choose conscious postures, gestures and expressions, to assume a place in the Work, to leave ordinary life behind, to live a Work life".
-- E.J. Gold
Reference Materials on To die before you die:
1- "Not That" meditation
ToTM030 -- 1985 Conflict Management
ToTM030, Conflict Management -- Talk of The Month
Audio CDT119 Conflict Management
Top 20 Archive Talks (talkofthemonth.com)
2- Vision in the Stone quote, chapter 27, To Die before you die https://www.gatewaysbooksandtapes.com/books/bk024. html
3- ICW April 2009 Die before you Die Preparation to death and dying, letting go of the mind and the beta brain waves, non-beta state -- YouTube
"As you enter into the realm of Extreme Mindfulness, the Attention to Detail and Level of Detail will assail your senses.
Use the Work Mantra: 'Let the cares of the world slip away.'
How does it work? How can you free yourself from the overwhelming burden of being alive in an organic world, with all its demands and miseries? You only have so many Attention-Points. They don't change number. Each point contains a thought-form. Those thought-forms can be replaced by other more constructive thought-forms, but you can't leave it to choice or chance." E.J. Gold
The above quote brought to mind the importance and necessity of practices. E.J. said many years ago, "If you do what you always do, you'll get what you always get". We are the only ones who can implement the necessary changes within. Changing our thought forms is one way.